Bdobby

of people. especially my suppose to be bestfriend who post bulletins on fucking myspace and answers shit about me like, oh well my bestfriend use to talk to me everyday but now she only talks to me when she needs someone. Fuck you. if i only talk to you when i need you why the fuck am i taking you up to my cabin this fucking weekend? uhhhhh people just annoy me. sorry i dont want to third wheel for the rest of my fucking summer when i go out and party and have a decent fucking time instead of sitting there in silence in your boyfriends fucking hot tub. no thanks.

(to a different person now) no matter what, im always going to be sensitive about you and for you. i hate it though, cause now after what happened i probably wont be able to be around you anymore. not because you wont be allowed but because its honestly best just to keep that type of thing from happening again. i am bad news. i am a bad influence. no way will i make you like me because i once loved you for who you are, how you can be so strong minded and everything. i hate this fact but deep down inside of me ill always know that no matter how i change or what i do i wont ever be good enough for you, you could say i was but i know i never will be. fact of the matter is, we are in two different worlds. im so sorry and for now, i guess you could say since i havent let anything go yet and i still hope for repeats of previous summers, i dont love you like i use to or how i strongly i use to but i do still love you and i will.

(different person) - its weird i still have feelings for person of paragraph above, but yet i still have feelings for you. i love wrestling with you it honestly makes me so happy. i laugh with you more than i ever have. to me, making me laugh is like a guaranteed deal. but its alot more with you, we obviously have had a fling before but it lasted one night, and although it was amazing, i wish that night would not have happened unless we would for sure have an on going thing right now. i mean i feel like it is going to happen again and that im going to get another shot but i also feel that you would walk out on me in a heart beat sometimes. it honestly drives me crazy. i want to know what your thinking about all of this but i feel it will be like last time, your totally oblivious to anything going on. i could be flirting non stop and only with you and you still wouldnt catch the hint. not to sound conceded or anything but you and i both know if you ever wanted anything serious i would be your best bet. i feel we could be something really special and i know that sounds really gay but its true, everyone in the group always comes up to me and tells me what an idiot you are and i agree. im pretty much knocking at your door and you only answer it when you want another hook up. i really hate the whole boyfriend girlfriend thing because ive seen what it did to our group and what it does to everyone and how they change but i know for us, it wouldnt be like that. we both know what it does and how it changes so maybe thats why you or i havent tried to make this something serious. maybe i just like the fact knowing i can still be wild and crazy like i am but still have somebody to fall on when i feel like falling.